New Born Love - Chapter Five

Finally the most awaited day has arrived...........

Was it planned??????? Can things happen so very well without proper planning????
Relevant questions for an irrelevant situation ;-)

People were busy at home getting ready with the routine.. I was njoying the monday morning.Rarely I get leave on mondays :P People were asking me to get ready and get along with them for that day's planned formalities.I somehow made myself brisk, got up and made up my mind to wear Indian Traditional Costume - Saree (which my uncle got for me to wear on this special day)

People were coming home and I was yet to dress up. My neighbour aunt assured me that she would help me wear saree.I was holding the saree and was going to the door opposite to ours (nieghbour's house)when came in a man with professional camera... I was surprised ;-)

Things were so serious,I then realised .I got ready soon and had to wear a bit extra jewellery cos of my well wishers compulsion ;-) Then started the photo session and in sometime, things were ready.Our hall which we felt conjusted was now looking so good and spacious. I owe a special thanks to our neighbour uncle who provided space in their house to place our space consuming dining table and chairs from the hall :-)
Time was getting closer and he arrived with his family.I came inside our bedroom when I saw them stepping into our home... People surrounded me and wanted me to lit the lamp.It was then my heartbeat increased... will I b able to lit it with a matchstick when my hands are shivering? Will it blow off immediately.. lots of weird thoughts were going on in my mind.I was denying to go to hall... was it my Shyness? My Tension?? or.... I dunno but people had to pull me to hall jus to light the lamp that was ready.Thanks to my uncle who had candle ready :-)

To my surprise our costumes matched each others... It was perfectly lovely coincidence :-)
My uncle's dad - Elderly person amidst the crowd took care of the formalities .Our hands were shivering though we were smiling for the photos during the Ring Exchange Ceremony. Atlast the moment has touched our lives...The tradtionally decorated and lit lamp, the smell of Indian agarbathis and happy smiling faces added flavour to our special moment...

The formalities along with little informal gift exchanges happened followed by lunch, photo session and discussion about the next step. Finally the date was fixed !!! Exactly eight more months to go for our Big Day !

Then was the photo shoot and little chat with him :-) It was time for him to leave and this time he was not in the same red swift but in black i20 ;-)

Gave a smile and moved on....
The day was really wonderful and colourful...

It was a mixute of Suprise, Anxiety,Happiness and many more emotions overflowing together at the same moment... No words to describe!

Then it was all Smiles :-)

New Born Love - Chapter Four

The most planned and expected day of our life !

Loved being in tradtional attire today... There were little interesting plans done to make minor escapes from the routine and things happening around....

He came in the same red Swift today but took a different route just to ensure we escaped the sight of our well wishers ;-)

I was in traditional wear and he in western casuals... :-)

As planned we drove to our planned destination. The climate outside was so hot and the traffic was heavy but in our destination , atmosphere was so cool and free ... could feel the power of the Indian chants... Smell of the camphor was taking us to a different place... Little lamps lit around gave the place a holy feel...

He lit a lamp and whispered in my ears "I'm doing it for US" ...It was then I felt the power of the word "US" :-)

Little time we spent in the heavenly atmosphere and started from there.....

Next he took me to places where he already decided to ... He always made sure I got the best and what I liked... I was surprised,excited and loved each moment...

He had planned many things in advance :-) I felt lucky to be with him....

My mobile was shouting with messages from my sisters enquiring as my location and time I would reach home .... Concern !!!!!!!!!!

As promised he dropped me at home at the right time...The most awaited day was nearing .. was just hours away and we both were least bothered ;-) Who cares it when heart has already decided ... The formal decision making alone was left out which will be happening in few hours time :-)

In short, the day was wonderful and colourful too...

From hot sun to cool holy place of God..Then little shopping with him and then a long drive back home............. Awesome day :-) Can explain it in detail to make it more clear but certain things unexplained adds beauty :P

Absence & Silence Killing Me

Have never been alone but have experienced loneliness amidst a crowd many a times.....

When I got a hold while walking through the toughest path, I experienced the great feel of true relationships amidst thousands of "Hi-Bye buddies" I had ....As I walked along with my close ones with me, I was the happiest on earth and now when those close ones moved to their destinations leaving me though not by heart, I experience the worst pain which I cant explain in words....

Sometimes these blog posts give great relief to me :-) These posts might not solve my problem, these might not help me or give me strength but for sure these gives me great company :-) A solace when I'm filled with the feel of loneliness,irritation,sorrow and .......

I know u had to leave me to reach your goal,

I know you have the same true feel in your heart for me,

I know you too long to meet me,

Stillllllllllllll...

Your absence pricking my heart...........

I know you are busy and pressured at work,

I know you are trying to find time to talk to me,

I know you are expecting me to understand you,

Stilllllllllll...

Your Silence is killing me.............

Both my hands were once busy with love and affection in each...

Love in left and affection in right,

But now, My hands are free

Searching for a hold...

I know Love & Affection remains the same,

Still... I'm feeling the missing....

I don't blame you dears for leaving me,

I don blame you both for not sharing with me,

But I'm telling you..."I'm missing you"...

Don worry dear.. I know you too feel the same ...

I know your time constraint,

I know your work pressures,

And I know you expect me to understand you and your situation,

Still...,I cant resist saying...

"I'm angry on you....Your Absence and Silence increasing the intensity of my Anger!!!"

Love & Affection....

Once you both were holding my hands but now I'm longing to hold you,

While walking along, I loosened the hold assuming you will not leave me ,

But by the time I realized I need you, you were no where around...

I'm longing to get you back into my life :-)

Waiting for that Miracle day when I will be holding love in my left and affection in my right hands....

Miss you both :-)

New Born Love - Chapter Three

The next move :-)

Our Planning could not be implemented....But unplanned meet was our official meet ;-)

He came home with his family after our ususal dinner time :-) I prepared juice and served them but while I was at kitchen, I could hear ppl teasing me that included both my moms ;-) Even I couldnot resist laughing as always :-)

There came in our family frens in curiosity and they wanted to know if we had already met ... I jus rushed into my room with my sister and were laughing over the question...He managed answering the question somehow :-) Then I entered the room and when the same question was pointed to me I too had to reply...We didn't even get 5 minutes alone :-) and this response of mine gave us a chance to talk alone...

Then we went to my room and he was having a look at my room as how my explanation coincided with the explanation and description I gave
:-)
Little shyness, little sharing and little exchanges of smile ....

Not even 5 minutes and his sisters entered the room with a smile ..rather giggle I can say :-) We njoyed that too...


Atlast the official meeting was over and they left soon happily.. I could sense the feel of happiness in all their faces :-)

Loved the visit :-)

New Born Love - Chapter Two

Fun Friday !!!

For the first time I made myself out of the event at my floor :-)

Started out in early shift bus...It was too hot outside...Enquired our driver if the bus would go via the place I decided to get down to meet him. Confirmed with the driver to tel me when to get down as I was not familiar to that place though I had been via that route n number of times during my college days... Occupied front seat unlike all times so that the driver could intimate me about the location...

In few minutes saw one of my friends stepping into the bus unexpectedly... made sure still my last row seat was empty and went there as I had my friend to intimate me about the place I need to get down!

Time passed away with few minutes over call, few minutes chat with my friend next to me and few minutes of sleep ;-) ... Traffic was heavy and so reached the destination fifteen minutes late . My late coming was least bothered as I had to wait for another fifteen minutes in the bus stop expecting a car on the way to pick me :P

Calls informing the start, traffic block on the way and at last the reach was the only solace amidst the irritating wait ;) Had to take few steps to have a look at him inside the car parked in the left
Got into the car and felt so relieved from the hot sun outside :-) No energy to even smile :-) but felt so good at heart...little ride in car and we entered a restaurant .. I washed my face just to get back my usual smile...Then we went to a table and he asked me to order . I ordered my favorite Strawberry Milk Shake :-) and he ordered Mango Milk Shake for him.

We were sitting in opposite chairs and he was looking into the photos in my mobile. I was explaining him each scenario where in those photos were taken.He requested if I could come adjacent to him so that we could have a better discussion with those photos... Spent little time sharing few things... Sharing was so good :-)

Strawberry Milkshake and Mango Milkshake was now empty... We moved out of the restaurant and then a small drive to a park near by... Spent more than two hours in the park sitting on a stone bench... There were families walking by, kids playing,couples busy taking photos near the fountain and oldies in for a walk in the evening breeze...

Time passed away in silence... He was surprised to see me silent and tried lot to pull me out of the silence but most of the times I smiled and smiled :-)

It was time to start back home...We started and it was a slow dirve then as we had enough time to reach :-)

This time, maximum was silence, then smile and little sharing :-)

Waved a bye after shaking hands and got down and walked towards my gate. He waited to see if I was safe to reach and started his car and waved a bye as I entered the gate and we left with an awesome feel in my heart .

The empty road and the lack of enquiry phone calls from my home made our plan a SUCCESS !

New Born Love - Chapter One

For the first time I loved wearing salwar and getting ready with new hair style and kajal in my eyes :-)
Unlike all times , I had a wide smile to go out in the eve that too in the traffic headed roads....I couldnot believe myself :-)
Felt the change in me .......

Rushed to my bus stop crossing the heavy traffic with mobile on hold...


I don't want to bring in any dialogues in this page as I feel the true essence would be missed in that case.. ;-)

There came a red Swift from behind and I turned back and smiled at the front glass window as if I could see the person inside driving from such long distance ...I cut the call when I realised he too saw me :-)

The car door opened and I entered in without any strange feeling...Felt so familiar .. Don't ask me car or person ;-) He handed over me a pack as I sat down....Felt good that we started sweetly ;-) Yes..that was chocolate pack he gave me :-) I placed it in the back seat :-)

As the car moved both of us looked at each other making sure our eyes didn't clash or looks didn't coincide ...Just tried to get the same feel as in our calls and video chats.. I mean the closeness :P Few minutes passed and our phones were ringing for the next few moments as all our well wishers were eager to know about our meet .


In another few minutes when silence was over taking us.. he switched on the music... I was surprised to hear one of my favourite songs... I started blabbering my love towards that song and the next song surprised me as that too was my favorite and later he told me , he had the collection of my favourite songs that I had once mentioned in my blog .

Time passed by ... traffic made us spend maximum time inside the car, then visit to my would be sis in law's house , little sharing about ourselves to eachother and while returning back home in the busy roads.... he asked me to switch on the music n play any song.. I just played one of my latest favourites that I have not updated in my blog and told him, even this is my favourite...he told, he took it from my blog without realising that this song was not in my favourite list in my blog ;-)

He then told he had all the songs in my blog and few of his favourites in the playlist ...I felt so so so...........(no words ;-) ) when I came to know the song now going on was OUR favourite .... favourite coincidence song :-) loved it.......


"Kannorum Kaathal Vanthaal Kannerumthithipaakkum..."

Lyrics seems apt for the situation as Mom's warning in between our meeting and the tension cos of it had vanished and it was nothing compared to the moments we spent together !!!

It was an unplanned meeting but we loved it :-) Jus few minutes together that too inside car in the heavy traffic still the togetherness gave life to those moments :-)

It was time to leave...
Same place where I got into the car....
Same place but now the road was not so busy and the street lights were on..
I opened the door and stepped out.. Something was missing...

A final touch??????

Dunno if I initiated or he did but for a second our hands were held together....

Yes!!! A Handshake atlast :-)





A hold that had "The joy of moments spent together" and "The sorrow of leaving alone with memories of the moments".... The feel was awesome :-)



The missing factor was a part of my emotion/senthiments/love/affection/care that I gave him through that handshake :-)